My friend Jess wrote last week about having writers block. I have an extreme case of writers block. Hers was induced by the fact that she had HUGE news and life changing events and was trying to organize the thoughts. I have writers block because there is nothing to write about. Life has gotten boring.
Part of it is busy with the routine of school. I don’t take as many pictures as I used to (and because it has been winter and we stay in more I take fewer pictures in this season) this winter I just haven’t had my camera. I’ve heard complaints from some of those of you who I know that read that I put to many words in my posts, about those that have no pictures. So I don’t write.
There is also the issue of online privacy and me being in a position where I am re-evaluating how much of myself I want to share online. There are some things I have chosen not to write about in this space. I am in a time where I am thinking about the reasons for this, and maybe changing my position.
I am thinking about who this blog is for and what is its purpose. Last year I changed the domain name to a “family” blog connected to my email address. But then is it my blog or our blog. Rob doesn’t post here. But because he is a big part of my life I thought it fair. But even that little change changed how I viewed this space. I also question if I am writing for me or for the readers. I know there are really only a handful of you, but maybe my readership is bigger than I know. I never installed a counter when I moved the blog. But my purpose makes a big difference in how I write here.
I know I want to keep the blog public. That is important to me. But I think I do want to reclaim the space as mine. Maybe make it a bit more personal. I also have really enjoyed the photo essays or digital stories that I’ve made a few times over the past year; lots of photos and a little text. This makes an interesting way to share the mundane.
I really enjoy blogging, and reading blogs, and it is a big part of who I am. So bear with me as a forge my online identity. One path to this goal is I am attending a Blogging conference this summer. BlogHer 2010 is being held in New York. I signed up on a whim a couple of months ago with the hopes that maybe I will get to meet some of my favorite bloggers IRL (in real life).
But now I am thinking that it will be a really great way for me to figure out where I want to go with this.