So I’m going to start going to a group for parents in grad school. I think it will be really helpful to talk about some of the challenges that are unique to parenting in this bubble we are in. In the course of the Intake interview with the psychologist who runs the group, she suggested it might be a good idea to actually see a psychologist on my own for awhile too. So I finally made the call to the referral I got a year ago… In the course of THAT intake appointment words relating to sleep were used more than any others. I knew I was tired, but until I was talking about the various stresses in my life I truly hadn’t put together how disruptive the lack of sleep had become.
A quick recap: fall 2010 get pregnant – at some point sleep gets bad; July 2011 newborn – sleep sucks and continues sucking through reverse cycling and overnight waking until October 2013 when Simon is finally sleeping a 10 hour night consistently; October 2013 20 weeks pregnant – can’t sleep; February 2014 newborn – sleep sucks; winter 2015 super sick kids; fall 2015 Caleb is mostly sleeping 10-11 hours at night I am waking multiple times at every little sound…
I haven’t slept well in years, and it’s getting to me. We’ve determined that the sleep is likely both a symptom and an underlying cause of my high stress levels and ability to focus. Soooo, the beginnings of sleep therapy, which is really just good sleep habits because starting small. I have to retrain myself how to sleep: bedtime 11pm, no screens at least an hour before bed, if I don’t fall asleep within 20 minutes get up and do something then back to bed, wake up at 6:15 and actually get out of bed.
I thought the no screens would be the hardest part, but I’ve been knitting to podcasts and it’s actually been the getting up part that’s difficult. A week in and I do feel a little more rested.
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