Why do I blog NOW?
I have a NEED to blog, but sometimes I choose to keep quiet because the things I NEED to write aren’t what I’ve written before. The changing identity is tough. I want to blog about some of my worries about parenting and how these are fueled by pressure from our culture rather than my reality, I want to blog about extended breastfeeding and weaning and how these decisions were made and the EMOTIONS, I want to blog this pregnancy more as a journal for me to remember how I’m feeling instead of a checklist of weight gain and cravings, I want to be able to look back and see substance in addition to the scrapbook of our life.
You see, I’ve changed. I started this blog when I was 25 and dating. In the last six years, I’ve gotten married, had a baby, parented a toddler, and am expecting a second baby. I’ve been employed, unemployed, a freelancer, and a grad student. Both my personal and professional journeys have changed me.
I know many people who start a new blog space after a life change – from infertility to parenthood, from personal to professional – but I like my space as a history of who I am. I share it with my family as I write about them, but it is primarily mine. My journey has led me to want to write more about topics I care about. To use this space as conversation without fear of differing opinions.
I have a few goals for how I want this space to grow:
- I want to blog some things just for me about things on my mind or that I find important.
- I want to take more pictures with an actual camera and post these.
- I want to make times for blogging because I’m having a hard time keeping work to what I consider manageable hours.
- I want to both enjoy and record our life.
- I want to comment more on other blogs. Part of why I don’t is my irrational fear of commenting and part is that when I want to comment I want to leave a thoughtful response, which requires my computer, which is way more work than using my phone. I need to get over it.